Ps:English is not my maternal language so i apologise in advance for any misspelling or non-sence sentences you might come cross in my blog :))
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A cold December day
A restless wind
A mind lead astray
A moment to unwind
An anxious heart
A Christmas melody in the air
A dreamy dim light
An unknown future
A deep breath
A blow of the lips
A wish of a soul
A bittersweet memory of a laughter
An empty tea cup
A moment to unwind
I’M SO HAPPY IT’S SO COLD AND IT’S GETTING DARKER EARLIER AND ALL THE LEAVES ARE FALLING OFF THE TREES DO YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS IT MEANS I CAN WEAR JUMPERS ALL THE TIME AND WRAP UP IN BLANKETS AND DRINK HOT CHOCOLATE AND EAT AND MARATHON MY FAVOURITE SHOWS WITHOUT GETTING TOLD TO GO OUT BECAUSE THE “WEATHER IS NICE” GOD BLESS AUTUMN THE SEASON OF THE BLOGGER
Sometimes I wish I could go back in time…. go back to those days where i spend most of my days hunting for imaginary treasure…where Television was a luxury of few and me and my granddad used a donkey as our transport… I didn’t had much, I didn’t ask for much and yet I had all I needed.
I was just another barefoot kid in a beautiful tropical island, I was free and happy…
As the sun sets she start to rushing in time, the ordinary girl begins her transformation,the sleepy eyes are disguised by the long fake lash, the strong make up hides her vulnerability, the long hair extension add the so needed glamour…she put on the vulgar yet expensive dress, wears her 10 inches heels so she can stand up tall, a few drops of her perfume and a shot of vodka…she is ready for the night…she is ready to entertain the lonely hearts seeking for company, the city boys looking for fun…she hopes she makes allot of money…she wishes to stay away from any bitchiness that the night might bring… she is ready for the worse and wishing for the best….after all, being a stripper is a choice made by her!
I accepted the pain and the tears , i unloaded my heart of all negative feelings that i once felt, i confroted the darkest side off my being. Im ready to let that chapter of my life flow, i wont deny it, i wont forgeit ,i wont regret it but i wont hold on to it either, i just let it flow.The time has come to reconise the lessons that has been learned, i reconise where, when and why i gone wrong but it doesnt really matter , its all been a desguised blessing. Im stoping using the ´if´, im replacing it for ´next time´.I wont waste so much time thinking of the past , i just let it flow.
just wake up, the sun is shining brightly outside, only slept for 4 hours but i don’t feel tired at all, i feel great….the greatest i felt for long time, the past doesn’t hurt me no more and the future doesn’t seems so scary.
I’m going to switch off this laptop get out off this bed and take the maximum advantage of this new sense of lightness, I’m going to smile at strangers as they were friends, I’m going to open my heart to world and see every moment as an opportunity of happiness…